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Bottner, Barbara

I Am Here Now

347 pp. | Imprint | August, 2020 | Trade ISBN 978-1-250-20769-2 $17.99 | Ebook ISBN 978-1-250-20770-8
(1) YA Fourteen-year-old Maisie characterizes her 1960s coming-of-age in the Bronx as "one of those fairy tales / where the witch eats the child." And for good reason. Her perfume mogul dad has moved out, leaving Maisie and her little brother to the not-so-tender mercies of their mother Judith, an abusive woman whom Maisie grimly compares to Medea. Maisie copes by immersing herself in art and venting to her neighbor Richie, who is waging his own battle against his father, recently returned from Vietnam. Maisie finds a kindred spirit in Kiki, her best friend Rachel's bohemian mother, and blossoms under her kind attention. But when Maisie starts seeing Rachel's philandering boyfriend on the sly and Rachel finds out, her thin safety net breaks, and she is forced to turn to the one person she swore she would never ask for help--her father. Bottner's "somewhat biographical but mostly fictional" first-person novel in verse is rife with wrenching domestic and relationship drama. Maisie's big emotions are splashed messily across every page, much like the Pollock paintings she admires. Her stormy relationship with her mother is heartbreakingly rendered, such as when she raids Judith's closet: "I'm trying to wear my mother. / It's the only way I can get close to her." A detailed author's note describes what aspects of Bottner's adolescence inspired the novel.
Reviewer: Jennifer Hubert Swan | Horn Book Magazine Issue: July, 2020

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